My Love-to-Hate Relationship with Blogging

Hello my lovely chums.

Yet another week has gone by, along with another set of cobwebs on my blog. I did okay for a week or two, posted once a week like I promised I would, but last weekend was a ‘can you not, life?!’ weekend, so I just didn’t. My bad.

The thing is, I think I secretly love-to-hate blogging. My on-off relationship with it is like most things in my life – shambles – and I think I get a sudden thrill of knowing I’ve still not managed to get my life into order.

I love blogging. I love having an outlet to get my thoughts out of my head, realising them from tormenting me. It instantly makes me feel better, which is why I’ll probably never stop doing it – no matter how inconsistent I am.

However, I hate all the other bits.

I hate having to schedule Tweets, think about what pictures I might post on Instagram and how to get the most engagement out of my blog – to the point I’d happily pay someone to do it for me, however ridiculous that sounds.

It’s a vicious circle: I feel guilty for not blogging, I log on to blog, I realise I haven’t posted on Twitter or Instagram for a billion years, I feel guilty and go to do it, I don’t want to do it (for old or new posts), I close computer and repeat the cycle all over again.

Obviously, I know I will never make anything out of my blog and I’m more than okay with that. As I’ve said countless times before, my blog is for no one else but me…

But, that doesn’t mean I don’t want it to slightly succeed.

Some of my closest friends when I was at my worst came from blogging. They understood me, they were there for me and they helped get me through it more than some people I’d known for a decade or more. I am where I am today because of them, and I want to get it back.

(I’m just not sure how yet)

All I know is I’ve got to get my blogging mojo back – and fast.

 

p.s. As you’ve been reading this, I’m currently dying on a netball court playing in a charity tournament. Please pray for me and my accident prone feet – I’m gonna need all the luck I can get not to break an ankle!

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  • First, I have to say your website is goooorrrrrgeous!! Love it. I have a bit of a relationship like that with blogging too. Some weeks I just can’t muster the energy to do all the stuff that goes with it. I started a new blog this year that is so much simpler than my old one. I just wanted to focus on the things I like, and not worry about all the other stuff so much. I retired my courses, stopped trying to think about how to make my site ‘bigger and better’ and got back to basics. I’m so much happier with my simpler site, and my simplified routines. Hopefully others will love it too! I hope your feet are still injury free and traversing the netball court with pizzazz!

    • Thank you so much, lovely! It means so much that you like it!! It’s so much easier, right? I have blogged many times in many different places, but think I finally found a balance. I aim for once a week but if I don’t manage it, no sweat!

      hahaha pizzazz is something I lack – I’m not the most graceful sportsman!! However, I did manage to stay injury free and even got in a sports massage!! xxxx

  • Austin Hodgens

    Blogging is a necessity for me. I do not enjoy my day job, so I look forward to getting home to release my inner writer guy, who is trapped inside all day while I’m chained to a desk. 🙂

    • I know what you mean! I love doing it and every time I give up and leave, I hate it, but equally sometimes I just have ZERO effort for it!!

  • tanya

    Good for you for pushing through! I Have met some incredible people in the past few months from blogging and I feel so incredibly blessed. It is a wonderful supportive and colourful world and each of us has something unique to offer, and I am so proud to be a part of it. Keep going and don’t stop!! Glad I found you!

    • Thanks lovely. I too have met some incredible people from blogging and wouldn’t ever give it up again (I don’t think!) but it’s still so tough sometimes. Thanks so much – I’m now off to have a gander at your blog! xx

  • Hi! I look forward to reading how your definition of “success” evolves. I know mine has in the past year of blogging. For example, I used to check my blog stats every day- now I don’t. It’s an honor to have anyone read it, who cares if it’s 10 or 1,000? I think how any of us defines what we want from the experience plays a huge role in how guilt operates. I’m nowhere near being able to define what that means for anyone else but myself, but I’d be curious to learn over time how your journey continues! Hope you didn’t break your ankle!

    • ah, I never check mine anymore – I know there’s not much point! I know exactly what you mean and I’m still on my way to finding exactly what I’m after, but getting there!

  • I can totally relate to how you feel. Kudos to you for sticking with it! 🙂

  • Sounds like a bad cycle. I can relate to how you feel. I read all the good advice on how to do Twitter and other stuff for the blogg, but I never get the hang of anything so I don’t do it. I know I should and maybe one day I will, but then again maybe not.

    • haha I know! I think I just struggle so much to get it into my routine, y’know? It’s such an unpredictable schedule and all that! xx

  • My prayers are with you, Sarah! Blogging can be a very confusing and frustrating activity/hobby but it’s so rewarding at the same time. I too sometimes get love-hate relationship with it, especially about the scheduling part. Believe me, if I could I would hire someone to do few maintenance tasks for me as they take up a lot of time and motivation indeed 🙂

    -Leta | The Nerdy Me

    • Thanks, Leta! Definitely know what you mean – I get so much out of it in return!! I’m glad I’m not the only one! Hope you’re well xxx

  • Lilian Yap

    Sarah, it looks like you have a bunch of people who are in the same category with us. I think all bloggers have a love hate relationship with blogging. There are so many reasons to love blogging (such as letting our creativity and thoughts out) and so many reasons to hate it as well (such as scheduling). If blogging is your passion, I’m sure you will get your mojo back pretty fast! I’m happy to see you being so genuine as to share this post with all of us!

    • ah, thanks so much – got no filter, me! It’s really tricky and, as with anything, there’s pros and cons. Hopefully I’ll get over it soon! x

  • siobhan

    This is amazing, I can relate on every level. Blog as often or as little as you want, fate will have the right people read it x

  • I love how much support you give me and my blog but your content is ace and your photos are gorgeous Sarah. I relate to this post on so many levels, like so many in your comments too! It’s weird this love/hate relationship we have but that’s also what makes it interesting 🙂

    Emmie
    http://www.carpediememmie.co.uk

    • Ah, it means so much you even noticed, let alone came and commented on my blog! I’m glad you’ve enjoyed what you’ve seen/ read! It’s a tricky one isn’t it – I guess nothing is perfect tho! & I miss it far too much when I leave!! xx